Transformation in Christ

I have commitment and follow through issues but I think that is all soon going to change. Yay! #prayforme

I would just like to share my testimony to the love that our Father, God in Heaven has for us!

As a Catholic teenager I had to do the Confirmation program. I legit, hated to go to Church and say the Rosary as I felt I was forced to do (especially by my grandmother ughh, God rest her soul). But during the 2 year duration of my confirmation classes, I found God. I thoroughly enjoyed learning about my faith and about Him that my negative thinking changed. I am not 100% in agreement with things that the Catholic faith does, however I have to admit that the guidance of the faith lead me to and back to God. This post is not about religion, let's be clear. This post is about my journey (a summary).

So as a teenager, I found God, I began building a relationship with my Jesus. However, as a teenager, I was still naive about many things and not fully mature (obviously). There was a period a few years after up until recently where I slipped out of my relationship with God. I knew it was happening however the choices I made was not helping to salvage it at all. There would be many ins and outs regarding God and I remember always (not always) praying before I entered slumber just because it was routine. There was no intention in my prayers; they were all just recitals until I fell asleep. God was always with me though, oh yes he was. I always felt protected and guarded (thank you Guardian Angel). The path I was walking was mildly sinful but sinful nonetheless. Sin is sin and sin leads to death (Romans 6:23). Jesus is our salvation and we must yearn Him to break the bondage of slavery i.e. sin.



This year, 2015, I don't know if I knew I was craving God full-time in my life for the past two or three years. Does that make sense? Lol. God was talking to me all the while. Sending people and events my way for me to re-evaluate where I wanted to be after the Earth ceases to exist. Sometimes you have to go through something heart wrenching for you to find God. I met someone, I call her Ri. Beautiful soul she is. A strong believer in Christ and she inspires me all the time. One of my coworkers gave me a Rosary, asked me if I read scripture daily, ensures that I do and we have conversations about Christ working in our lives and trust me, we both need work. I recently have been reunited with my best friend from secondary school and she is another inspiration. The challenges she has overcome and is overcoming reminds me that we all have our own issues to battle to bring us closer to God and that we all have in common, the LOVE OF GOD. My cousin Lee as well is a 'born again Christian' and her devotion to Jesus is admirable. My fiancé even goes to Church with me and he loves God so much.



This year I did the Life in the Spirit Seminar for a 2nd time in my Church and it was a more meaningful and fulfilling experience. I always had a negative view about the Sacrament of Reconciliation (confession), why must I go to a man to ask God to forgive me? That all changed when I went to confession this year. It is hard to describe the feeling I felt afterward. I went to God with my heart heavy, I told the priest all the sins that came to mind (trust me, years of sin), I said my penance with genuine intention and the heavy heart I had left me, I tried to think of things I felt guilty about about and nothing, no feelings about it. It is a feeling one must experience to truly understand what I am describing. That event truly solidified my decision in making a huge effort to mend my relationship with God. I yearned the Church again, I attend Mass with intention, I pray and talk to God with intention (out loud sometimes). I feel His power in my life, I feel His love in my life, I feel His presence in my life. God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit is REAL (yes 'is' lol). Believe me or not (I really hope you believe me). My prayer for the entire world is for everyone to give their life to Jesus. I don't want the enemy to take the souls God gave to us mere humans on this Earth because they BELONG to God.

Some changes: It has reached now where I could care less about Carnival, about certain music (dancehall and music that is utterly negative, most soca), I really try to treat people with more kindness (the ppl I do not necessarily like) until I don't have to try any more (because it is nature), I read scripture everyday, I attend Mass more regularly, my filthy mouth is getting cleaner (I rarely curse any more) except for those darn cockroaches and when I injure myself. But hear na, I squeezed my thumb in the car door and I didn't curse!!! Yaayyyy!!! I jumped up and down bawling though lol. I have many other smaller testimonies of God working in my life, e.g. the time my sandal strap burst and I found a piece of littered twine in the grass. Now no one can tell me God didn't allow me to find that.

I longed for Jesus in my life, He knew I wanted Him and I knew I had to make some changes to live for and with Him. I tell you eh, God is sooooooooooo GREAT, God IS Love!!! #PraiseJesus